You're like the hook in my favourite song

I like to sing.

Not that I think I'm an amazing singer, just that I like doing it. I especially like singing when I'm on the road, driving to work because it puts me in a good mood. I like to start days with good moods. Which is why I say, never ever, start the day with John Mayer. Though he is a lyrical genius, generally his music just brings me down because then, all I think about are my past relationships and how they hurt, etc. etc.
So I go with rock. Maybe something like anthemic rock. Or even music from Broadway/film musicals. Or nowadays, it has been Glee music because Glee makes me smile, no matter what the song. Lea Michele never fails to make me smile with her beautiful voice.

I don't get the whole stigma about being embarrassed about singing while you're driving. Why should you feel embarrassed? If people laugh, then so what? I feel sorry for them because it just goes to show they're not even brave enough to do it. I do it for my own enjoyment because music is so much a part of me that I really cannot function without a song in my heart. Why is there fear to do the thing you love to do the most? There shouldn't be.

You shouldn't be afraid to do what you want, when you want. Especially if it is something that you love. Because god, don't you just get this awesome feeling rushing inside you when you know you're doing something you love? Don't people want that for themselves? Don't people want that for others?

Because I do. I want that for other people. To know what it feels like to be so consumed with joy and love. To get lost in the throes of cool passion. It's life. It's love. And there is no better drug than that.

I'm ready to know what the people know

I took my niece out for a drive tonight 'cause she's 2 and she doesn't actually have any cousins who are near her age and live anywhere nearby. Older cousins maybe but they hang out with her older brothers who are the same age. My older sister's little girls are around her age but she occasionally visits so they hardly get time to bond. It breaks my heart to see her face when they leave and it's like she realizes that she's on her own again. I mean seriously, her only real friend is our driver. And he's about to leave for home, for good.

So I took her out for a drive tonight because my brother and my sister-in-law weren't back yet and my niece just looked so sad, trying to get me to do something. I'm at work all day so all I want to do is just lie down, y'know? But I knew she liked going for a ride in my car so I took her for a short drive 'cause I don't have a baby seat in my car and I'd rather not be on the wrong side of legal. But I took her for a short drive, had a Rascal Flatts CD playing in the stereo, and she was quiet for most of the drive.

When we got home and I saw that my brother and my sister-in-law still weren't back, I opted to park in the driveway and just switch open my sunroof so we could look up at the evening sky. And when I looked up, I didn't know what to feel. The night sky was so completely dark and you could see so many stars dusting its canvas. It took my breath away.

I had a moment of dork when the next thing I thought was a line from The Little Mermaid.

"I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things, could be bad."

Now that I'm in the safety of my bed, I think about the stars and I wonder whether there were other people who have felt the same as I did. That no matter how dark life gets, the stars will light our way. And the sun will eventually rise.
This is how I feel whenever I'm on the beach, watching the waves forming from afar, coming together and crashing on the shore. The Earth and Mother Nature can create as much chaos together, but chaos doesn't last forever.

We just have to have faith. Or we get lost in the dark and the chaos.