So I took her out for a drive tonight because my brother and my sister-in-law weren't back yet and my niece just looked so sad, trying to get me to do something. I'm at work all day so all I want to do is just lie down, y'know? But I knew she liked going for a ride in my car so I took her for a short drive 'cause I don't have a baby seat in my car and I'd rather not be on the wrong side of legal. But I took her for a short drive, had a Rascal Flatts CD playing in the stereo, and she was quiet for most of the drive.
When we got home and I saw that my brother and my sister-in-law still weren't back, I opted to park in the driveway and just switch open my sunroof so we could look up at the evening sky. And when I looked up, I didn't know what to feel. The night sky was so completely dark and you could see so many stars dusting its canvas. It took my breath away.
I had a moment of dork when the next thing I thought was a line from The Little Mermaid.
"I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things, could be bad."
Now that I'm in the safety of my bed, I think about the stars and I wonder whether there were other people who have felt the same as I did. That no matter how dark life gets, the stars will light our way. And the sun will eventually rise.
This is how I feel whenever I'm on the beach, watching the waves forming from afar, coming together and crashing on the shore. The Earth and Mother Nature can create as much chaos together, but chaos doesn't last forever.
We just have to have faith. Or we get lost in the dark and the chaos.
2 comments:
I'm fascinated with the sky. Day or night, when I'm driving or walking or just sitting in my yard, I look up at the sky and it calms me. Life is crazy and hectic, I'm constantly feeling as if stuck in a never-ending whirlwind that seems to make time travel faster, but when I look up at the sky it gives me a sense of balance. It makes me realize how very small I am in the world, not sad or depressed really, but how I'm just one of so many people in the world, staring at the same sky and feeling so alone when we are in fact a part of something so much bigger than ourselves. How can we not look up at this vast, everchanging canvas and feel as if there has to be so much more in this life than we can understand, or even to dare to hope?
I have just recently discovered your blog and must say that I like your honesty and candor. Your words feel real and personally relatable, and that's something hard to find for me. I actually found this link from your fanfiction page (of which I'm a big fan by the way) and was curious to read your real thoughts as opposed to those expressed through your stories. So far I'm impressed and even more intrigued, thank you for sharing.
Janel
I wish that I had a yard where I could sit and watch the sky. All I have is jungle, jungle and even more jungle, lol. Not that I mind because it's nice to be surrounded by green and not concrete y'know? But I would love a yard where I could just spend hours and hours, watching the clouds pass me by. I remember when I lived in London, I would go to the park with friends and we'd just lay there on the grass, one ear-bud in one ear each. And we would talk about anything. It was a magical time in my life.
I have been remiss with posting lately because I've been caught up in my fan-fic writing and work. But I think I might be coming back to it because my brain is overflowing with things to say. So thank you for discovering my blog.
- Az
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