Angry blog... Shield yourselves.

I'll be letting this go after this post. I just need to get this out right now.

So you do something nice for me. So I don't say thank you. So you happen to get me on my off day. It's not an excuse but then there shouldn't any excuse for you to make me feel I'm a horrible person. Like I should be murdered or something.

Look, here's my thank you now.

Thank you for making me feel about so big. Thank you for making me realize that traveling thousands of miles, shifting everything around to suit your need, was pretty much a wasted effort. Thank you for letting know me exactly where I rank in your life. I get that you have more important things to think/worry about, but I never expected that I would feel like less. You, of all people. I never would have thought you'd be the one but so there, thank you for making me feel like less.

I don't fucking need this. I don't need my friends holding something over my head just because they did something nice to/for me. So what, you do something nice for me and I'm automatically indebted to you? Like I owe you something back?
No bullshitting because I know this as fact, I do a lot of nice things for my friends. I never expect them to thank me. I do it because I either want to or they asked me. I don't want anything back from them. If they feel obligated to do so, I'm not going to stop them. That's my biggest issue from this ordeal. That they're not even willing to give me a free pass for slipping once.

I don't get this whole thing of doing something for somebody just because they did something for you first. And if you don't do anything about it, you end up feeling guilty about it every time you see this other person. I don't get that. Why should you feel guilty? People should do things for other people because they want to, out of the kindness in their hearts. Not because they want to get a fucking thank you. Getting a thank you should not even be a goal.

I'm rolling my eyes in annoyance, just so you know.

I'm out.