This is your life. Are you who you want to be?

It's now been almost four days since my birthday. I have to say, 25 is looking pretty good. So far.

I was looking at my old blogs from a couple of years ago and I can sort of see how my thoughts have progressed from how they were back then. Like I have stayed on the same path and now I just have more evolved thoughts. More specifically to do with my spirituality which is a life-long process. I still don't believe in a one true religion. I still believe in love, even more so than ever. Love will always be the very thing that guides me. And I am steady in that.

On the day of my birthday, the first song I listened to was 'Meant To Live', by Switchfoot. I know that this isn't the life I want to live and I can choose to change it. But I choose not to change it. I choose to stay and see what could happen from here.
I read earlier today that to be a slave by choice means you are free. Because you had the freedom to choose to be a slave. And that to for it to be by otherwise, would mean that you're not.

So what am I? A slave of circumstances or slave of my own choice?
To be honest, I don't know. Circumstances have lead me to where I am now, but over time I chose to stay. I chose to stay because I wanted to see if I can do this. Being in a place that demands me to not be completely myself, but still be myself regardless of it. Will I survive? I'd like to believe that I will, purely because that is just how we're all programmed. The instinct to survive is inherent in us all. We make the best of what we're given, and just to pray to TPTB that we'll have always the faith, and the strength in us to go on.