25 days until I'm 25

25 days until I'm 25. That same question pops up: Am I where I want to be at 25?
But that kind of question involves expectations. Expectations that I do not harbour because I have learned that I can disappoint myself pretty well, and I think I'd do well to not expect so much of me. There are no bare facts to what is but I can say that I have no complaints about where I am as I edge closer to 25.

I am working. Albeit at a job that is not my field of expertise, or even something I love, but it has it's good moments and I can bide my time. In the meantime, I'm earning an income that helps toward my future. I learned that when I'm in a situation that I cannot control or do not like, and there's no other option, I make the best of it until an opportunity presents itself.

I am healthy. As healthy as I can be as I'm trying to live a healthier lifestyle. It's unfortunately very hard when the meals that get made in the house are usually fatty, oily meals, lol. Really. And you never know when people want to go out for breakfast/brunch/lunch/dinner/whatever else. But from this, I learned to strengthen my will to either not take that extra bite, or to not order something my eyes like seeing, lol.

Most importantly, I have good friends who look out for me, even from a distance. They’re always concerned but not clingy, y’know what I mean? They let me have my space to deal, and they let me come to them.

Last year, on my 24 days before 24th post, I blogged about Ashley, and I would like to come back to talking about her for a bit. As most of you will know, we're not together due to the fact that neither of us are actually living in the same country anymore. But we're still friends. In fact, she has been the best friend a girl could ever have. Not a lot of people believe that exes can be good friends without any unresolved tension or whatever. But that is not the case here. The foundation for our relationship, whether it be as friends or as partners, is honesty. Our ability to communicate whatever we're feeling/thinking helped. Sure it led to some disagreements, it's not like we were going to agree on everything, right? But they still helped.

... And we still do love each other. Maybe that sounds sad or tragic to some but the fact that we even still do, is a blessing for the both of us. Better to love than not, right? It still comforts me on my worst days, and lifts me up higher on my better ones.

That's the biggest reason why I look forward to being 25, or at least why I'm not completely bothered about being a year older. It's because I know I have love in my life. Whether it be from Ashley, or my family, or my friends. I have love.
And it's because, I have love in me.

What other better reason to be, than to love?